Emptiness and sadness

I just give up to find another half of my heart...

I just felt that i'm not fit to be with anyone...

I only fit to be a friend...

but not a lover...

Please don't say i'm not trying..

I have tried it for quite some times...

finding my another half...

but I only found emptiness..

and sadness..

In front of others...

I can smile...

I can laugh...

I can talk...

like normal people...

But deep inside me...

my soul crying out loud...

they shouted...

just to be loved by someone they loved...

again...

only emptiness and sadness hear them...

Am I  that bad?

or there are no love for me in this life?

must I wait for another life in heaven?

My heart...

My soul...

what gonna happen to you?

Only emptiness and sadness have the answer...

-Imran Yusof-